F0R3N

Peace or War

Lately my mind has been wandering. I find it hard to look people in the face when i speak, constantly feeling like im being judged. I think this feeling of insecurity is from the years of neglect from my fellow peers. Nothing can stop this feeling, and at the same time I dont want it to stop. Without it i would feel empty, but with it i feel empty inside. I force myself to do daily tasks necessary for living. Eat once a day, sleep very few hours, and smoke like its going outta style. I need to end this feeling but without the proper help i feel that im helpless and will continue this self indulgence until i feel sane. Racing thoughts keep me up at night, at times i find it hard to even look straight constantly moving my eyes back and forth and sometimes into the back of my head. Spinning round and round goes the world around me and i feel as though im standing still not moving forward in time or space. This is the first time ive ever written anything personal about myself but i know that i need to keep my hands moving otherwise itll never find a way out until it forces its way out causing a ferocious attack at anyone in my way. Then eventually this ferociousness will subside into a mental breakdown, spirling down until rock bottom. Its inevitable and nothing can stop it. With the recent events with celebrities dropping one by one i find myself not giving a damn because they had it all and i have nothing. I have a group of friends that cares, a loving/supporting family, and nothing to show for it. I think these thoughts are coming out because of a number of reason that I’m not going to state due to uncertainties of what truly is getting to me. I hope whoever is reading this doesnt think this is a suicidal note or anything. suicide is for cowards and i know im stronger than that. This is a statement of slight insanity and possibly denial of what i really am. I dont want to think of myself as someone who needs help, or is crazy, or has issues. I like to think of this as my call out to anyone, whether i know you or not, to simply talk. And this is my tranquil armageddon of a sad boy in an uncomfortable state of mind.

• Skinny Jeans $52
• all white Tennis Polo $25
• Plain white shirt $20
• The cost of wearing all American Apparel $97

Its been a while…

Since ive been on here blabbing about my life lol. its been busy times getting my friends all situated in their new apartment. going to buy shit, setting things up, but im back in the swing of things. Havent really had much time to design anything new but when the money is earned there will be a new shirt design up for sale and cant wait for the release of that.

Stay tuned for more updates,

Foren

Home Sweet Home…

Sitting at home with my friends from back home, after their long day of driving now its time to just sit down and relax. one more day of classes hopefully Flash goes quick and ill be outta there fast. Gotta present something really quick then take a small test then im done with flash, fuck flash. Math is all done for thank god that shit was soo fucking boring. but now that my friends are here to stay maybe times will be easier =P

Today…

is going to be a slow and boring day, I can feel it. My parents live 1200 miles away so i can’t spend fathers day with my dad. It’s national go skate day and my roommate is gone. Finally the online store is up and running and I’m still waiting for my first sale on it, little exciting. I have no food in this god damn apartment so I can’t just eat all day. I have a project due on thursday that I havnt started, ugh. Today is going to be a slow and boring day.